August 10, 2012
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I’m tired….
I’m getting kinda tired of doing the same thing over and over. Its like being in a loop. the problem is that i have no money and am not in a good place to even try to branch out. When i think about going out and doing my own thing, i feel that i want to leave everything behind and start from scratch. Just leave friends, family, basically every tie i currently have and just start new. I don’t want to do this endless dance with everyone. I on’t even want to continue the pieces that i have just built up. I want t be free, live the way i want to without having to look over my shoulder and see who is trying to catch me. I don’t want to have to be super happy Omar, who has that one and only emotion. I want to feel everything to its most extreme. Seemingly, life needs you to have one and only emotion. Everyone defines you as that one emotion. They don’t listen to anything else. whatever is on the outer layer of the onion is what everyone expects from you. i want to be me…..
….Its been a long time, myself…..
