February 23, 2013
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Current World Woes
Today, i was working. I felt good till, like, mid way through my shift. i don’t really know why. I just didn’t want to talk to anyone all of a sudden. They were all in my way and i just had to make it through. So that’s what i did. Although it doesn’t help the friendly service people have come to expect from me, I still did my job flawlessly otherwise. I’m just tired of hearing about issues all over the store and all this other mess. If i didn’t have to be friendly to customers i would love my job. I constantly have to be super happy when i am there or someone is like, “what’s wrong? your off today.” and its like, no i’m just not super happy today. I need to get a job where people don’t know me and start over. I hope when i move i can do that. I still gotta get everything ready…. Credit, car, moving money…. *Sigh* this year is gonna be a big year….
Maybe another thing is that i haven’t been doing anything other than going to work and then going home to sleep. I haven’t really let myself get engrossed in a video game in a long time. i try and then i snap myself out of it with a task i need to do and completely turn it off. Writing? I haven’t done that in….. since last time i posted here. Well publicly as i did a private one yesterday cause i finally needed to vent. I have been wanting to get back and start writing regularly, but in the end, i end up feeling that its a waste of time or my writing is going to hurt someone’s feelings. I tried to disconnect all the people who actually know me on here so i can just go full blast. there is no way to know if they really are disconnected or not so i just avoid it. maybe i should just do it and see what happens…. i don’t know…. I keep alot of secrets…… I might give it a go one day, we’ll see…
well later then….
